Why Am I Attracting This!!

In today's society being metaphysical is the in thing, understanding how the universe work and how it affects our lives is the buzz of the season. There are some that call it the awakening!! I call it my Grandmothers theory. As a child you were always told to do on to others as done to you or turn the other cheek, quotes from the bible that my Grandmother frequently drilled in my head that still ring in my ears daily. Although these are words that we all have heard, how is it expected to possibly apply these words of wisdom?What course do you take when life is in your face, and all hell has broken out?

I often seek out books and blogs for wisdom of what the law of attraction truly is. How could we attract hurt and pain or death to our lives when all we want is to be happy? How is it possible that I have attracted my boyfriend leaving me, losing my job, bad health, or the fight with my sister? I saw the film (The Secret) maybe 50 times trying to absorb the process and learn how to apply it to my life. I am not sure that I am doing it right. But, I am trying and on a quest to learn so that I can awaken and be aware!! lol.

I have always had the philosophy that what a person put out in to the universe is basically what they get back. (Although some crappy people seem to being doing just fine) lol. So.. My thought was that I would send out rays of love every chance I got, so that I would receive an abundance of love back! Well, I did get some awesome results, but I also received some pretty lousy results also. A kind of 50/50 return. I read somewhere a mist my 200 self help and metaphysical books that while the positive 50 bring you joy and happiness, the other 50 of negative energy is there to help you grow. Its like if you have never experience heartache or pain you have no knowledge of how to handle it, when it arrives in your life. So we are suppose to take the negative that we have created or at least had a hand in and learn from it.

Every morning when I wake I have a ritual of thanking the creator for all the things in my life good and bad. I make my proclamation that I am going to have an awesome and wondrous day and then I imagine in my mind what that wondrous day will look like. I then pray that all my family, friends, and friEnemies will live long and prosper. Yes, I pray for the haters also, because the process is that haters are a necessary evil, to motivate you to get you where you need to be!! I love it when someone tells me I can't do something!! It’s like motivation on steroids!! hahahahaha!